today go to plaza sing with deary to watch harry pot-head. super awesome nice show this time. no more nonsensical bullshit crap talking story. just action death action and more death. totally loved the way they portray it perfectly. everyone is old and pot-head loves to get naked. on broadway naked now on movie also wan naked. bloody flasher!!!! =x hahahas
dear had understood all ur mistakes. learnt from them. grow from them. i love her always. i never did not loved her. i was never angry never frustrated never fierce. i only felt sad or dissapointed in her. i expected the unexpected. thanks to good friend max. she understood all her mistakes. she got back to being herself. thats y i love her. its because because of me, she is willing to sacrifice abit. just abit to make my happy. for us to last long. love trust honesty and commitment.
i love bao xian. i loved her. i love her. and i will still love her. =D
its the 10th of november 2010. One month since we were together. I still clearly remembered how i proposed to you. Totally overjoyed. Now a month has past. Many things happen between us, both good and bad. But we move on learning from our misrakes. Appreciating our happiness. No one is perfect. U and me both aren’t perfect. But being together all we felt was perfection. I love your thoughtful surprise, your awesome present. Every bit of it i will treasure. Even if we dont know our future we can build it together. I love you bao xian. =D
going to watch this show soon. totally love reading the book -already bought it- awesome story line. hmmmm today totally enjoy myself with dear and her friends. go cineleisure and orchard central. bought her a shirt. first gift i actually bought for her since we are a couple. somemore the shirt is something like the shirt she wore that i pass to her =P HAHAHAS. <3 her to the max today. even though she was really disappointed in me, i hope i can change myself abit to allow myself to please both her and her friends. HAHAS!!!!~~~ nothing much to post le bahs. what i realise today is the level of volume of her voice is so loud that even at an arms length away i still can hear clearly …
for the past few days all i got was lots of “i dont know.”
what do you take me for? am i just there? y cant you tell me anything?
isit really that hard for you to say things?
if i dont know how am i suppose to help?
am i just your boyfriend just a label?
am i just someone?
cant you explain things?
cant you just tell me whats on your mind?
must you tell me all kind of excuses when end of the day you say your disappointed in me in ALLOT of things.
i realise the more time i actually spend with you.
the more i dont understand you.
open up to me, i am here, for you, always, i love you, that 3 words changes everything, dont make it stop you.
p.s back from helena’s party yeah. going to bathe then sleep. just wanted to write stuff on my mind on this tumblr. if you read this dont be sad please. i dont know what happen YET or what is happening. but i am willing to solve it. anyway possible. oyasumi nasai, sweet dreams, love ya <3
i love you bao xian. the amount of love and warmth u gave me today is so much i cant even embrace it. thanks for coming all the way to my house to see the-already-ok-sick-me. thank you very very much. and singing ktv with u and friends was equally as awesome.
it doesnt matter how much it hurts u that ur parents cant find out about us. the main point is that you and me. we are together. you are mine and i am yours. they will eventually find out but by then we might even stand a chance to stay together. being negative and say it will never work out if your mum finds out is wrong. if you actually hang with her more. understand her more. getting bonded with her more. she might change her mindset of not allowing you to have any boyfriend.
looking forward and never back. past is past. present is present. future is future. we never know exactly what or when anything could happen. it just. like how i fell in love with you.
i hope everyday i dont need you to hide from anyone. to openly show your love for everyone. i dont want you to hide from anything from anyone. that day i hope will come. before its all over. i dont want the things between us to be torn apart by anyone or anything. i want to hold on to you. every single step of the way.
and i got 1 news for you. happy 1 week. its 17th already. 7 days since the day you said yes. i will remember that day. how i was sincere and honest. you are the one. the only one. i love you bao xian.
together forever. everyday and every night. be my baby. be my only one. be the love of my life. i dont want you. i need you. your my everything. everything i am thinking of. i dedicate my time to you. appreciating everything else in return. i will be there for you. each moment and time. as life passes by. i hope its you that is spending it with me. i love you. 3 words that is only for you.
i need you. it isnt a want. your not a thing. i appreciate the little things you do for me. i love the time you spent at my house. even though i could tell you are very tired. you always dont want me to worry about you. thats love. its love that make u not wanting to make me worry. love brings us together. i love you bao xian. very very very much. so dont be sad. i want you to be happy always.
what isit that actually is happening? jealousy? anger? sadness? cant you all just be happy for me once? just hey shaun congrats u got a gf. when wanna bring her out to join us? instead i get bullshit and nonsense which i do not even want to hear. i make the effort to plead and beg. to get my gf and her 2 other friends to come all the way from woodlands to town. y? just that i can hang with my friends. what did i get? fucking attitude problems. i ask u when u with ur gf? did u spent abit more time with her? did u fk care me? when i ask u out just to see ur gf? dont tell me NO. what did i do? i say things like “hey have fun, dont miss me, lets go out another time.” what did u say to me? “so u hack care about us le la?, 100% attention to ur gf le la” come on dudes. ur not 10 year old kids that need a maid where u go to tell u what is right and what is wrong. understand me abit more. i MADE the effort to persuade them to come hang with u all. what did i get in return. “sorry i at home sleeping” “oh i wanna watch my show at home 3 then i go -when its 3 30-” “3 45 oh i leaving my house le, see u at bugis -wasnt it somerset?-“
im disappointed and sad.
love makes us do many silly things.
like calling u in the middle of the night and shout “i love you” repeatedly.
like traveling from one end of singapore to the other end just to see you.
like mentioning u in every thing in my life.
like listening to your sweet voice on the phone makes my day.